Stormy, sunny day

Day Ninety-five: Today started out BAD, but after some prayer, some breathing, some thought (and a decision), a timely conversation, and some moving on...it has turned out rather good. I know it isn't over, but I'm liking the direction things are moving.

I have those lemon bars I mentioned a while back in the oven right now. Excited!!! By the way, a post about all the cooking and freezing that has gone on this week is coming soon...maybe tomorrow?? I think I've been really productive. I hope I still feel that way when I see it all written in one place...

Now, for some gratitude... I'll warn you its a little personal and feminine...

Thank you, God, for productive mood swings. Thank you for shifting hormonal levels.

I hate them usually. I don't think they are all good, but today good came from one. Without going into detail, I'll share that I have been having a rather emotional (read: hormonal) week. Today, I pointed out to myself that God made women and he made us with fluctuating hormones. Lots of good things come from these fluctuations...or are made possible - like my little girl. God doesn't make mistakes. This I know to be true.

Yes, I'll admit some fluctuations aren't normal and need attention. However, I'm pretty sure that some fluctuation is just natural and now I'm wondering if it is maybe even a little intended (for purposes I hadn't considered before).

Why do I say such a thing? Well, for me it brought (and brings) A LOT of feelings to the surface and today made me take action...talk and pray and think...because there was to much to be ignored. It's easy to just push away this little thing and that little thought and that upsetting feeling again and again and again when they come in isolation, but not so easy when they all come calling together.

So my negative feelings came uninvited to my too-small-to-hold-them-all house and there weren't enough places for me to tuck them all away, out of sight. Instead, we visited and enough of them left for me to feel better.

Bad analogy? Yes, it's not my gift...but sometimes I really want it to be.

Maybe that was too much detail after all...oh well.

Thank you, God, for hearing my prayer. Thank you for letting me experience my stormy emotions and then bringing me peace.

And, as always, thank you for giving me a wonderful husband and precious child and two adorable, sweet puppies (they get two adjectives because there are two of them)!

Edit: After a little reflection, maybe I'm just experiencing the "happy" version of my mood swings and I should also be thankful that the pendulum swings both ways. :)


What's this about? I decided on my birthday to make a commitment to being intentionally thankful. I challenged myself to post one thing I am thankful for everyday this year.