Don't Wanna

Day Nineteen: I don't want to do this right now. I don't want to think of something good. I'm not in a positive mood. I made a commitment to do this everyday though. I am going to do this. I have tons to be thankful for and nothing to complain about. Even if I don't feel thankful. I'm not going to live according to my emotional state alone. It's wrong. Just felt like being honest.

I am thankful that I am not a one dimensional being. I am called to love God with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength-we all are. If I think of those as "dimensions" of me, I might think heart=emotions/desire, soul=spirit, mind=thoughts/reason, strength=body/effort. God wants all of me...no partsies. I find that this multi-dimensional view of myself is helpful. If one part of me is weak (like my present emotions), my other parts can bring me back, keep me going, balance me out. This is a very good thing.

I could say more (I always can), but I think this is enough for today.

Thank you, God, for making me the way you do in all your wisdom and knowledge. We, humans, are amazing creatures. Your design is...I can't find the words. Awesome. Excellent. Thorough. Please teach me to love you better and more completely. Please continue to be patient with me (and forgive me) when I let my emotions be my guide or any one part for that matter. Thank you for giving us all such a variety of faculties by which to love You.




What's this about? I decided on my birthday to make a commitment to being intentionally thankful. I challenged myself to post one thing I am thankful for everyday this year.